Ukraine War - From a Different Perspective

Is it possible to actually know what has been and is going on in Ukraine? 

I have been wondering if the reality in Ukraine might actually be "out there" somewhere written in English for morons like me to read. For me, all this Ukraine war reporting has been triggering something akin to cognitive dissonance although cognitive dissonance doesn't really cover the feeling I get. It's more like being helpless against the overpowering impact of the neoconservative movement here in the West where everything in the media has a covert agenda - "covert" meaning secret meaning you have no access to the truth when you read mainstream media reports. It's exactly the same feeling I had when I delved into 9/11 and how the media was reporting on that.

In other words, the truth is sealed in a see-through container buried somewhere deep in the ground and its location is a well-guarded secret. How would you feel if it were you who knew that fact?