Eden Hill Journal

Comments, dreams, stories, and rantings from a middle-aged native of Maine living on a shoestring and a prayer in the woods of Maine. My portion of the family farm is to be known as Eden Hill Farm just because I want to call it that and because that's the closest thing to the truth that I could come up with. If you enjoy what I write, email me or make a comment. If you enjoy Eden Hill, come visit.

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Saturday, November 06, 2004


I rented a movie this evening and watched it with my wife and daughter. Nicole Kidman stars in it. It's an extremely strange and disturbing movie called Dogville. Very disturbing...

Friday, November 05, 2004

Baghdad Burning

Read the entry in this blog for Monday November 1 under the subheading "Some Terrorists..."


There is something I need to get off my chest. It's something I have been intending to say for quite awhile, but now seems to be an appropriate time.
For all of my life I have been aware of an important principle and here it is. In this world there are no human beings any lower than men who profit from wars but are not willing to fight such wars themselves. Since most fighting men are best recruited for training when still young, ages 18 to around 26, that principle applies to them more than to anyone else.
Young men who profess the just cause of the Iraq war but are too cowardly or too full of self worth or self interest to risk their own lives for that cause will spend the rest of their lives crawling on their bellies. They are as cowardly as humanity gets.
If you think that I am being personal against you, forget it. First, this principle didn't originate with me. Second, you are far from alone in your cowardice. Many of the 59 million voters who approved of Bush/Cheney in 2004 are exactly your type of creep.
If you are of fighting age and you want to support the troops, then sign up or shut up.

Thursday, November 04, 2004

Dark Time in America

Maybe it's just the November weather in Maine. Maybe that's why I am so depressed. Maybe I should be out hunting today rather than wallowing in dark thoughts about the future of America. Maybe that's the answer.
One thing I will do today is take that Kerry/Edwards sticker off the tailgate of my truck. I'll take the yellow Support Our Troops magnet off too, save it until there is a glimmer of hope that America might stop the war. I don't support the war and don't want anyone thinking I do.
There were calls from both candidates, the winner and the loser, to unite again as a country. Bullshit.
So where will I go from here. Where is the hope for sanity now? Where will my energies make a difference?
America declared on November 2 that truth and sanity are not welcome here. Lies, deceptions, greed in its many disguises... these are the rulers of the land and the majority of Americans have now shown that that's the way they want it. So where do I fit in this dark new America?
There is every reason to believe that America will dive deeply into the waters of war now. Our economy is already "recovering" as a wartime economy. War is good for business. Outsourcing of manufacturing jobs is leaving many young Americans in need of an income, enough need to get them to enlist in the wars. We all heard the promises not to use the draft to enlist our soldiers. If we actually do go ahead and engage Islam in the Holy War, if we follow that with the war to finally rid the world of socialism, as long as we outsource most of our low-skill manufacturing jobs, we should have no problem finding enough soldiers to die for our cause.
What I don't get is how the conservatives see that as something "bright." To me it looks incredibly dark and depressing.
Maybe I just need to take my gun and go shoot something. It's deer season in Maine.

Wednesday, November 03, 2004


I feel now like I am an alien in my own country.

Sunday, October 31, 2004

Will It Be in Heaven?

Moral judgment, knowing what is good and what is bad, comes easy for some people. Not for me. I tend to not see things in black and white but rather to see color in life, variety. Things that are clearly wrong to some don't really look wrong to me. Things that are clearly right to some don't really look right to me.
But recently I have been working on developing a philosophy about this problem of trying to judge what is right and what is wrong. I look at it from a futuristic perspective. I look at the world from the perspective of the angels, or more precisely from the perspective of the inhabitants of Heaven.
We all know that many of the world's people simply don't believe in Heaven. Of those who do, many if not most just don't see Heaven as having anything much to do with earth's future. Heaven is someplace else, not here on earth, in the minds of most of the Christians I have ever known. But in my perspective, Heaven is a hoped for state of life right here on earth, a future condition of earth in which all of the inhabitants live in mutual respect and love and with an enlightened awareness of truth, God, and reality, and from that perspective understand what is needed for not just the survival but also the enjoyment of life on earth.
Our world isn't like that now because we haven't chosen it. The potential is there but we haven't chosen to make it happen. Instead, we have chosen the pursuit of wealth, power, and greed - self-interest. We haven't chosen to make our world a place where we do to others that which we would have them do to us.
But back to my main topic. How can I know what is right and what is wrong? I have a new test. Whenever I wonder if something is good or bad, I ask myself if it is something I hope will exist in heaven. Usually it becomes quite clear right away when I use that measure. One good example is whether I imagine Heaven to be inhabited by right-wing legalistic war-mongering religious zealots. These days it is those people who imagine themselves inhabiting a Heaven far above this earth while God burns this place to hell.
I don't envision people like that in Heaven!